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Thursday, January 1, 2015

Past Fear// 2015


The new year has me dreaming without boundaries and loving without walls. 2014 was such a blessed year. As I write this, I really can't comprehend the amount of wonderful things that took place in 365 days.

Seven things in 2014:

1. I started this blog. And every single time I publish a post, it feels like coming home. My words have a safe place here. I can't even begin to describe how grateful I am that I made the resolution to start a blog last year, and that now, I can't imagine my life without Life Is.
 

 



2. I made the switch from studying Elementary Education to English. I decided to get off the paved path I was unhappily walking, and go out on a trail that would have no promise of a career or a clear beginning, middle, or end. My goodness, even the moments where I have felt completely overwhelmed and lost, I am so happy to be doing what I am doing.


3. I got an internship and then a job at the Las Vegas Sun. At 20. In a major city. With relatively no experience in writing, besides this blog. It's a beautiful life.



4. I made such wonderful friends this year. I've got an amazing family. Sweet kids I get to watch grow. I've got people that challenge me, make me better, make me grow.
There are so many more people not pictured who I am so grateful for this past year.
 






 
 


5. I have fallen in love with running, being outside, and the abilities my body has.

 

 

 


6. I went to Bali, Indonesia by myself. I was bit by the wanderlust bug, and hard. But travelling overseas made me realize that I never really appreciated the little things, and the big things, of my life here.





7. I feel like I have a home. I feel really proud of the person I am. I am so excited about this new year.


2015 holds so much possibility. And there is something really unifying knowing that people got up all over the world today with the hopes that this year they would try a little harder, and do a little better.

The dictionary definition of resolution is "a firm decision to do or not do something." To me, the word is slightly intimidating and nearly every year, I've got a few things that even if a had a firm plan to do or not do, it doesn't work out. My goal this year is to live deliberately, intentionally, and forgive and love myself for the days that don't work out just the way I planned.

I'm not going to share all my resolutions this year, but I've got one that ties everything together. It's my word for 2015: fearless. Be fearless. I want to practice doing the things that scare me, I want to actively place myself outside of my comfort zone, I want to be a little bit scared, and a little bit anxious, but know that I did everything and anything I wanted to do.

For me, fear is a physical place. It's where I go to hide, doubt myself. It's a dark alley and it's cold and crowded with people who worry about the same things I do: are these risks worth it? Am I worth it? What if I fail?

What if I don't fail and it's completely magical and awe-inspiring? What if I fall and get back up? What if instead of what I intended, things are even better?

Everything I've ever wanted has happened to be just one push past fear.

I don't want regrets. I want opportunity. adventures. love. I want to fearlessly love myself, my life, my flaws, my setbacks. I never want to tell myself, "I am not good enough." or "It's not going to work out."

I want to get out of that dark alley of doubt and fear and move gracefully towards the light.

2015, I'm ready for you.

Happy New Year! xoxo

6 comments:

  1. You go, girl. 2015 is going to be THE BEST.

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    1. Thank you, beauty!!! Wishing you lots of love, opportunity, and adventures in 2015!

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  2. What an amazing year! Here's to an even better 2015. Happy New Year

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    1. Thank you, Vicky! I hope this year is wonderful for you. Happy New Year!

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  3. What an exciting year!! Bali all alone...that is amazing! Have a great 2015!!

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    1. Thank you, Katie!! Ah, it was so incredible. Thank you. xo Happy New Year!!

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